Just coming up for air!!

I want to take a minute to say 

"SORRY", 

yes I have been very neglectful in my blogging.

I have been trying and trying to find that holiday spirit, but it

still eludes me.

I see all the beautiful bloggers out there showing their homes, 

so amazingly decorated for Christmas 

and I just shrink away in defeat. 

I have always been a Christmas nut in the past, always

decorated and all decked out for the holidays.  

What has changed me so much, I have been asking 

myself lately. 

The only answer I can come up with is 

that I miss my family.

There is a piece of my heart missing, it's 

800 miles away in Oregon.

I have always had all of my kid here with me for the 

holidays in the past.  We would celebrate all month

long as a family, making baked goods, Christmas Crafting and 

shopping together.

Last Christmas was my sweet little Jackson's first Christmas.

What a great time we had watching him try to open his presents.

He didn't know why all the hub-bub but  he loved it and 

gave it his best shot.  

This year will be even better for him, I so wish he could be here.

I know he will be here in January, but I'm a grandma and very needy.

Who wouldn't be just look at this little man.

He makes my heart ache with all the love I feel for him!!

There is one bit of fun to look forward to, 

my daughter Alex will be making it home for Christmas this year!!!

I can't wait to have her home and in my arms.

I'll have her home for two whole weeks!!!

I can't wait!!

My sweet honey has been so very patient with my funk.

He put up the Christmas lights and bought the Christmas tree.

I so appreciate his effort and love him a bunch.

I tried going to the mall to see if I could find a little more

Christmas spirit, but all I wanted to do once I got there was leave.

I so don't mean to bring anyone down, but through it all I 

believe I have found the answer.

Christmas is not in the stores or malls, 

it's in our hearts and mine is just a little lonely.

I'll be fine, this to will pass.  

I am so blessed to have such an amazing family, 

and a life I love!!

So please accept my apologies for being neglectful and a bit of

a Scrooge. 

 It's reassuring to know that even Scrooge got a 

second chance.

Lot's of love to you and yours this

Holiday Season!!

x0x0x